life's a kick

दिल्ली में बारिश मज़ाक सा लगता है... ठीक वैसा, जैसा कभी तुमने मेरे साथ किया था आए थे, तो सिर्फ जाने के लिए मिले थे, जैसे एहसान जताने के लिए जितना सुकून दे न गए उससे कहीं अधिक बेचैनी बढ़ा गए तन तो गीला कर गए पर मन सूखा छोड़ गए बिन मौसम आए बिन मौसम बरसे पर जब मन से पुकारा, जब दिल से आह भरी, जब हाथ जोड़ कर बिनती की, जब आँसू तक राह देखते थक गए, तब तब ज़ालिम तब तुम न आए दिल्लगी करने के लिए कुछ और न मिला था क्या... जो मेरी तमन्नाओं के साथ खेलते रहे? तुम्हारा मज़ाक दिल दुखाने वाला मज़ाक ठीक दिल्ली की बारिश जैसा लगता है...

There's a shiver in my spine something slips in my chest my mouth is going dry i can't relax or rest my knees are a lil wobbly & my stomach is making sounds all i see is blur n haze is it something i lost, or something i found? i've always been impatient to hide you in my soul & now that you'll be here i seem to have lost control! thrill grips my limbs as i hear the coming of my mate toughest, maddest, longest are the last few hours of wait.

Allow me to be your child and roll into your arms allow me to be your pupil and drink from your palms allow me to be your heroine and cavort around you allow me to be your lover and kiss you red n blue allow me to be your mentor and show you the source of light allow me to be your friend and paint your world bright allow me to be your parent and pour my soul into you allow me to be just anyone who can help you to be true allow me my friend to partner you forever to fight for you, stand up for you and desert you just never.

तुम साथ रहती हो, तो हवाएँ हँसती हैं दीवारें खिलखिलाकर पूछती हैं मुझसे 'तो मिल आई सखी से?' साथ चलती सड़कें पलटकर खड़ी हो जाती हैं और गुदगुदाकर कहती हैं, 'बड़ी रौंद है आज तेरे कदमों में... वैंडी से मिली थी क्या?' कॉफी शॉप का तो पूछो ही मत उनकी आत्मा तो जैसे मेरे पैरों में गिड़गिड़ाती हैं फिर ऑर्डर करती हैं, 'जा, माना ला उसे, ज़रूर तूने मायूस किस होगा' बाकी सब दुकानें बगावत में साथ हो जाती हैं, फिर धमकी देती हैं, 'सोच ले, तेरे बिस्कुट-चॉकलेट सब धरे के धरे रह जाएँगे' तितलियाँ भी न जाने कहाँ से आ गालों पर नाचती हैं जब जब तुमसे मिलके दो-चार बेदिमाग बातें करके कई और भले बुरे ताने सुनके कभी सद के, तो कभी लड़ के पर हमेशा प्यार से जब वापस घर जाती हूँ तो वो पीली तितलियाँ भूल से मुझे फूल समझ बैठती हैं गर दिन में तुम न मिली, तो शाम मज़ाक करती है उपहास में कहती है, 'मूड क्यों ऑफ है तेरा?' रात भी उंगली करती है 'बात कर ले वरना नींद नहीं आएगी' ये सब - ये दीवारें, ये सड़कें ये दुकाने, ये चौराहे ये तितली ये जुगनू सब जलत...

Scores of people i could meet entire world i could roam but return to you i must for you are my only home your arms are pillars i need to hold on to when weak your chest is the pillow i use to dig in my face and sleep in the pool of your eyes i jump for some frolic and fun in the small of your back i hide when for solace i run i drink the elixir of your lips you are my nourishing food you're also the kitchen in binge in to kill my bad mood to cry and crib in peace i get cocooned in your embrace your face mirrors my heart it's my living room, my own place my sanctum sanctorum is your body my room for love and prayer i cleanse n confess myself there derive strength, love and care pain, tiredness & boredom you absorb them in like a foam you're the only place in the world the place i call my Home.

Skies, don't rain. no no no don't you show me the color of darkening heavens don't spurt the smell of earth that leavens don't rain, oh! please don't for rain reverses the scene wounds that time had dried rain opens them green it's not that time ever healed it just hid behind the crust the pain the longing the love moving on is time's lust all is well, I've taken it accepted that flowers won't bloom that land of my heart will be barren that silence will ache in gloom so don't rain, oh! cruel you don't show the possibility of hope Rejection - I've handled so often that Love - I won't be able to cope I wanna tear apart, you clouds! I wanna howl and shout in your face I'm creature of the wilderness don't need your rain and grace Hardened thickened scarred i can play with degrees of pain my edifice shatters, my base is bored when falls the first drop of rain lemme live, lemme survive oh! do...

You wanted to know how i feel for you so lemme show you things lemme prove it to you your finger in my hand, run with me to skies unknown, clear and blue don't you read it on the wind, written in bold that i'm your fan, that i'm mad about you? arm in arm, let's stand in the rain face up the sky, the lash of pearl don't you hear the drops, sing out aloud that i'm your lover, that i'm your girl? in the thick of night, let's go to the woods feel the sway of trees, hear every sound don't you see them paint, through shadows of life that forever i'll be, that i'll stick around? shut out the world, dig your face in my chest bind my soul to yours, with an intangible chord don't you feel my body, whisper in your palms that i love you like life, that you are my god? you wanted to know how i feel for you... don't you hear the world talking? don't you feel it in the sky? don't you taste it in the air? don...